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i cant believe its been almost a year since ive been on here. i have been living with nikki and four room mates for awhile now its great when there is no drama. but for the most part its been great ive seen some of you and told you the good news me and nikki are getting married next year and we will be sending the invitations soon. id like to hear from every one that i haven't heard from or read in awhile just to see how things are going. well i have to take my room mate to work soon
Current Location:
MY apartment
Current Mood:
complacent complacent
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love is what i feel when i look into your eyes, and love is what i see when you look into mine. love is what calms my mind when i think of you. love is what makes my heart heal when you run up and hug me anxiously. love is what makes my soul jump when you kiss me. love is what lets me sleep at night when you hold me. love is what wakes me up in the morning so i can see your gorgeouse eyes. love is what i feel all the time when you are by my side.

i love you Nikki Parr you mean everythig to me.
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i am truly happie now ......... my true love is by my side we are moving in together and we grow stronger and stronger every day... nikki thinks she is hurttin but she is only makeing me happier because she tells me how she feels she dosent hold anything back .......... the only reason why i feel paine right now is because of her ex brian. he is writting letters too her saying how he loves her more than anything and wants her back just as much .... its funny cuse he said he was happie for us and he wasnt going to do anything to harm our relatonship but he is doing exactly that he keeps upsetting nikki with his letters which in turn makes her talk to me about brian which she thinks she hurts me every time she dose but its not her hurtting me and makeing me angry its brian i mean i dont mind talking to her about brian but hearing how he loves her and wants to be with her he is absolutly disrespecting our relationship and its makeing me angry. nikki says she loves me and will never leave me i trust her 200% its brian im not trusting hes told two lies so far. one more and he is done in my book i hate being lied to more than anything on this planet........ nikki i love you babe you arent doing anything to hurt me plz understand that its not you its brian ............. i miss you nikki i cant wait to marry you and move in with you............. well im going to go to sleep now my head is throbbing like a stampeede of rinos


i love you nikki talk to you when yo get home ♥
Current Mood:
confused bleh
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im sitting here waiting for my love of my life too call so i can hear her voice.. im driving my self insane with the thoughts of my minds eye.. ive been having hella deja voo feelings in the last week its wierd i get good ones then i get bad ones its like fate cant make up its mind right now..... like i said its wierd.... oh and im developeing a sleeping disorder its wierd i sleep realy well when nikki is by me but when she isnt i cant sleep for more than an hour ............ i love her more than anything she in physical reach she has the same personality as me we have hella stuff in comon likes dislikes ....... and then theres the one thing thats realy pissing me off and i dont understand it at all..... every one i know is telling me to be careful its pissing me off im in the happie but every one is telling me to be careful i love nikki i will die for nikki just like i would die for kyle and ryan rbekka and kat nikki is my life my fire my goddes ..... my everything
Current Mood:
confused waiting for my love to return
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here i lye watching with my minds eye .......... my body no longer decays and dies ..... my heart is filled with fire and passion ....... my soul starts to fly free ...........i have found my queen ........ i walk twords my throne with nothing but my life to hone ......... all i can think about is you ............. and every thing you do ........... i will carve your name into the stones of destiny my love ............................. i am so happie we found eachother nora... no not nora you are nikki and you will always be my love even beyond death i will love you for eternity mis nikki parr
Current Mood:
anxious anxious for your touch
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why is it that im hated so much......... i love nikki i love her more than any thing in existence but im only second in her heart. shes healed all my wounds and freed my soul but i cant stop her bleeding....... why why in the fucking hell am i hated so much..........
Current Mood:
confused confused
Current Music:
maralin mansons: a place in the dirt
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met a nice girl. love her so.

btw this is kat not william. he loves my friend so much. and he met her yesterday. awwww
pinch his cheekys!!!

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......I've tried my hardest to live in this this world..... and every day i wake my condition is worse...... the people around me are all dying inside and its killing me..... now i lay here in my pool of blood contimplating wether i should end it now to preserve what sanity i have left or to try to keep my grasp on what little life i have............. my castle is falling my boddy aking and my soul cries out..... but no one hears it cuse no one cares my death is inevitable........... my worlds destruction is past now i see its my turn to be casted in to the void at last......................

sincearly yours
Spike Dugar Nova ♥

Current Mood:
pessimistic pessimistic
Current Music:
Drownding pool:somthings got to give
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why is it that life has to be this way....... no matter how hard i try it always spits in my eye...... my soul is fading my heart is bleeding and my minds eye is on its way to die..... my body akes and my fate waits...... my goddess and my guardians have left me in a hellish wake....... my nightmares my mind they do take........ the scars have returned the bleeding has begun again and all i want to know is when it will end..................
Current Mood:
depressed broken and dieing
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my pet!


Elle!!!!!! i love ya hun your a sexy tiger lol and yea guys ya heard it i have a girl friend now!!!!!! Her name is Mary Ellen Yates shes about 18!!!
we have alot of the same views on life!!! she is hot !!! o.o lol
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